Well the Christmas season is upon us again. There are lots of mixed feelings this year. Our loss of Dare is acutely noted at each function. He always enjoyed these events and was very "present" at them.
Today is my 2nd born child Justins 32nd birthday. He has grown into such an amazing man. I am just bursting with pride at all of my children. Justin has blossomed in the past 5 years into a creative artist in form of video and photography and musically. He is also stepped up to the plate to be a super involved single Dad to his two young children. Also involvement in the social movement to help men suffering abuse and single fathers gain rights and fight the injustices they face.
Work has been exceptionally busy this year. The rotating shifts always present a challenge however I love the work and right now cannot imagine being anywhere else. There have been some intense cases recently and I am mindful that I need to practice setting healthy boundaries and detaching from these clients who are very sick with mental illness.
This is the first year that I have yet to decorate the house, it's very late for me and I will be doing it over the next few days. I thought I had a "do nothing" kind of week-end ahead but, today we are leaving for my grandsons hockey, then my grandaughters cheerleading showcase. I had tentatively planned to get together with my best friend and go to a meeting however, I need to have some quality time with my partner. I plan to just go with the flow and see how the day and night unfolds.
I have had some clear signs lately that my intuitive senses are coming through stronger and I feel able to just allow it. Sometimes I have such a buoyant response when something happens that validates it. I should not need any validation but, I guess I am still working through that and the "trust" part of my intuitive senses. Even though I am busier this year, I am missing my Mom more then last year. Part of the process I guess. Perhaps because I just finished an intense 6 weeks of a bereavement course that included working through our own grief. I do feel her around me though and that comforts me.
I am at a bit of a crossroad today. My full time contract ends and I have applied for an outreach contract and the full time front line contract. I have to have faith, trust and allow whatever happens is for my highest good. I may be back in my part time rotation and working more at my other job in mental health. Trust, have faith, allow.
Today is my 2nd born child Justins 32nd birthday. He has grown into such an amazing man. I am just bursting with pride at all of my children. Justin has blossomed in the past 5 years into a creative artist in form of video and photography and musically. He is also stepped up to the plate to be a super involved single Dad to his two young children. Also involvement in the social movement to help men suffering abuse and single fathers gain rights and fight the injustices they face.
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| Justin with youngest brother Christian |
This is the first year that I have yet to decorate the house, it's very late for me and I will be doing it over the next few days. I thought I had a "do nothing" kind of week-end ahead but, today we are leaving for my grandsons hockey, then my grandaughters cheerleading showcase. I had tentatively planned to get together with my best friend and go to a meeting however, I need to have some quality time with my partner. I plan to just go with the flow and see how the day and night unfolds.
I have had some clear signs lately that my intuitive senses are coming through stronger and I feel able to just allow it. Sometimes I have such a buoyant response when something happens that validates it. I should not need any validation but, I guess I am still working through that and the "trust" part of my intuitive senses. Even though I am busier this year, I am missing my Mom more then last year. Part of the process I guess. Perhaps because I just finished an intense 6 weeks of a bereavement course that included working through our own grief. I do feel her around me though and that comforts me.
I am at a bit of a crossroad today. My full time contract ends and I have applied for an outreach contract and the full time front line contract. I have to have faith, trust and allow whatever happens is for my highest good. I may be back in my part time rotation and working more at my other job in mental health. Trust, have faith, allow.
