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| Daughter Racheal and Grand daughter Lydia |
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| Hanging out at my sister in laws house on Christmas Eve with family |
Well, I sure have not been on the ball with writing this winter. I have been working so many hours, I feel like I need two of me. Once again I am having a challenge with balance in my life. The addictive and personality traits I have tell me to do all or nothing. I tend to lean to the side of all. When I get out of balance I suffer. It seems like I could work 7 days a week between the two right now. Calls come in often and I am working 6 days a week. When I pick up shifts I feel like I need to take them, in case they don't come again and to build up my seniority so I can get full time work. However the past few weeks on my one day off I end up exhausted and in bed. So many sick people around me ALL the time, it's remarkable that I don't get sick even more. I felt kind of yucky yesterday but, pushed through and worked last night. Today I'm just too tired. Not throwing up or nose running even. Just feel like my sinus's are all clogged up in the back of my head, coughing a bit and tired..so tired and a low grade fever. Definitely fighting something off. Been juicing and eating well. No diet coke for about a month. Maybe that has helped keep me from getting the full on colds and flu's that many around me have. On Friday I took over the shift from someone who ended up getting a full out flu on Saturday. I usually wipe the phone and keyboard and all that off when I go in but, it was absolutely nuts when I went in and did not do that this time. She is still off work 4 days later. Tried to get up a couple of times today and hit the shower but, no go. Crawled back in bed and hope to feel better tomorrow. I said no to many shifts so that I have today and tomorrow off-2 days in a row. Glad now that I did that. I hope to feel well tomorrow so I can be up and about. Who wants to be sick on their only days off? I have a paper to write for my university class that just got posted today and is due a week tomorrow. I hope to get it done tomorrow since I work every day after that until next week-end. I still absolutely love what I'm doing, it's just balancing all areas of my life so work is not the dominating factor. I have always been that person who wants and loves to be with their children and grandchildren. Be part of every celebration, planning with them for weddings and babies, helping them through challenges and sharing all parts of their lives. I could never move away permanently to somewhere else if my children and grandchildren were here. I like to drop in and have sleepovers and go to their school functions. If they call and want me to come over, just go. Pick them up and bring them for a play, picnics in the park in summertime and being part of their memories as they grow up. My kids have such a wonderful relationship with their Grandma on their fathers side and that is how I want it to be for my grandchildren. A safe place to land. Anyhow, my life has gotten too far out of balance to really enjoy all of those things that I value so much. This will be my goal into the spring..to achieve balance. I know other people love where they live because of the community or the amenities or the weather. I am the same, I love where I live because of the view. As seen below and above.
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| Oldest grandchildren Cassandra and Taylor |
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| Skate party with son Shawn and grandson Jack |
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| Taylor at Christians party |
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| The brothers and brother in law and dad to celebrate Christians 15th birthday at paintball |
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| Grandchild Lydias 1st birthday |
