One step closer-February 7 2011

Well, in finding my passion I have taken on a few things. #1 I am in a University course for the first time ever. I am taking a psychology course, and although I am loving it, it is tons of work. I am re-adjusting my brain for classroom learning again, and I have a hard time focusing anywhere except school. So I have to drive over to the school if I need to get real work done. That goes for studying, research or written work. Even if it is quiet and nobody is home. What is up with that???? #2 I am working with a Career Transition Company to help me with these next steps. I'm attending workshops that help identify my "Strong Interests" and therefore what I might find a good fit for a career, and resume writing and many different helpful things that I know will only help me grow into myself.#3 I am also planning a trip to India this fall to get my Yoga teachers training certificate.#4 As well I am cleaning a couple of houses just to keep a wee bit of cash flow coming in. I feel like I have this internal struggle going on between this aggressive goal oriented thrive on challenge kind of career person I have been and loved. I love the research and teamwork, planning and executing sales and operational goals as well coaching and motivating people to help them grow into who they want to be. Then there is this other side that has come out in the last few years that is seeking spirtual growth and seeking truth and enlightenment. I think I tried to merge that into my business life and perhaps that was my downfall, I'm not sure, but I would not do much differently anyhow. I have gotten into Yoga over the past 2 years and I had been doing Yoga for about 4 months when I attended a Yoga retreat at my sisters retreat, she has been a Yoga teacher for many years. Anyhow she has been vegetarian for a number of years now and her whole retreat is as well, so after eating these amazing vegetarian dishes all week-end prepared by her and her husband, I felt so much better. My stomach problems were much improved and I decided to just not eat meat each day and those days added up and I become a vegetarian about 20 months ago. My sister has been such a support for me during this time and I feel like one of my greatest cheerleaders. There are 7 years between us, so our early adult years were never in sync, but as we both made changes and became honest in our lives, we found each other and I am so truly grateful. So a bit off track there, but with all of these changes I have begun to see the world through different eyes. I feel like we're all part of the same family, and I try to look for the good in everyone. I always seem to be able to find the positive in all situations, and I have become a much more forgiving person. I have always been a fast paced, Atype of ADD person. Rushing around to get as much done as possible, overscheduling myself, not really seeing the person in front of me that I am talking to. I am making a real effort to really slow down, to look and see every person that stands in front of me. Try to make a connection with them. Whether it's the cashier at the gas station or a close friend, to look at them and make that connection and send them love. So you can see that I have a real struggle going on. I am hoping I can merge these two styles I have into my life. I was at a workshop last week that we had to fill out a questionaire ahead of time and attend a workshop to determine our strong preferences and it confirmed that I am just as confused on paper as I am in my mind..Only a couple of points separated me from being a "social"(healthcare, healing, social work) and and "enterprising"(Sales, Management..) So we'll see what tomorrow brings. I have to read the rest of my chapter from last week's psychology lecture and the chapter for this week and study for another quiz. What do I want to be when I grow up?