Hump Day-February 9,2011

Is it really only Wednesday? I feel like I've put in more than 3 days so far. Nothing new on the eye front, just "hundreds of floaters" that he can see, but no sign of retinal tearing, come back in 6-8 weeks. Are we waiting for a retinal tear? The dilation of my pupil really bothered me this time, so sensitve to light and blurry. Got to drive in 30 minutes, I may have to cover the bad eye and drive with the good. So I brought my 18 year old daughter Sam to drive me home from the Opthamologist. She learned to drive my standard about a month ago(license Dec 24-10), and she's been taking it pretty regularily so I figured it would be ok. So I backed it in the spot which was right across from the exit, with the up and down arm to let you out. So she peels out of the spot about 8 feet ahead, and I thnk ok, we're just getting the feel again. So off we go heading out and turned and north. I am feeling very nervous, and I figure she probably feels it, so I lay my seat back and close my tired eyes, so after maybe 1 minute I open them and see a rapidly approaching trunk of a car, and "enthusiastically" request her to slow down... stop!!!! Oh my goodness, a near miss. I am pretty sure we would have hit, had I not looked up. So we peel out of there again, some very abrupt jerks back and forth a few stalls later, we land home. Whewww. We were both laughing so hard at one point at the situation, our stomachs hurt. I will trust my one good eye to drive I think tonight. Feeling a bit blahh tonight. Got my regular meeting though, so that will give me energy. My husband spoke to me in a way I thought was not authentic and of course I called him out on it. I feel is not acceptable, and it caused some conflict, which is never fun. Why do men have such a hard time just admitting they were wrong?????? I don't get it, I admit it all the time.I am wrong fairly regularly.However I really believe you treat people how to treat you, so it's my responsibility and important I let him know when I am upset by it and I expect the same in return. He's got great qualitites, but are overshadowed sometimes by the less desirable ones. We are all works in progress. I am feeling the need for solitude. I have some Aeroplan miles to use, I think after my school and career transition is done end of April, oh and after my niece has her baby due in May(I am also a birth doula), maybe the end of May. I am taking a trip alone. Me myself and I need some alone time.