I have been going crazy in the garden over the past 5 days or so. My dear friend Gail got bitten by the gardening bug when her brother died 11 years ago and my Mother also fell into this form of therapy when my Dad died and now I find I am becoming healed by creating in the earth. Gail has a gift of vision with the gardens and she has helped me a great deal. Not only in the earth but painting furniture and other items "refurbished" into useful items. We had lots of laughs in addition, screaming muscles. My foot that has been sore since Christmas is killing now based on how much I'm on it.
All in all a great long week-end. I worked a shift, spent lots of time with Gail and my family and the weather was spectacular all week-end.
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| My oldest son Shawn with his son Jack visiting before Mom died. |
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 Son Justin with his neice and my granddaughter and my Mom's youngetst great grandchild who was one of her last meaningful contacts. She thanks Michelle (background) for bringing the kids and reached out and touched Lydia and said good-bye. |
Today I went to see a grief cousellor to talk about one-on-one sessions. I feel like I am working through my grief in a healthy way just sometimes it hits me and I feel such sorrow. I had to "tell my story" to the counsellor today so, that brought up some memories about that last few weeks of Moms life. I find I am going to call her sometimes or when a commerical about Hell's Kitchen show came on I laughed with my daughter. During the last few days of her life my daughter Racheal and Sam were with me at the hospital with her and Racheal had her Ipad and was looking for some show Mom wanted called "Best Recipes Ever" and she had Racheal searching all over, she searched and searched "Chex" and every other place and after much agony looking she found it and told Mom she found "Best Recipes Ever" and Mom say's ' What's that' I've never heard of it" and then Racheal say's what about "hells kitchen" and Mom says. "What? that's the worst show on T.V.". "We laughed so hard about that we nearly cried"
So, these little things are popping up that give me pause to remember and today I'm on the down side of the roller coaster. I am just missing my Mom today.
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| My Garden |
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| Notice the pink crocs are back |
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