It was a beautiful day today, sunny and warm. It felt so energizing to be out in the lovely weather. Our hot water tank-tanked on Thursday, so that was how the day started off. The 2 guys came to put in the new tank. One of them turned out to be Justins friend. Very nice man. Justin's long time partner that he just broke up with in the fall, got remarried in a city hall wedding yesterday, to a guy she's been dating for about a month. Crazy stuff! Justin found out from the father of her first child by a text message. She has not told the children yet. I went to see my wee grandson Jack today. He is such a joy. When I got there he was in his jolly jumper and when I came down the stairs, he just broke into such a spontaneous joyful smile and excited babbling, it warmed my heart. He just makes me feel so happy when I am near him. I need to spend more time with him. It reminds me to hold gratitude close to me when I experience "Jack". Racheal is getting her stomach scoped and biopsied and colonoscopy next Friday. The Dr. seems to think she very well might have Celiac disease. Next week is so busy. I'm in Toronto Monday, Tuesday and Thursday at workshops and working Tuesday morning, Wednesday and Friday, cleaning houses, then off to the Yoga show for the week-end with my sister. I am looking forward to that, take my mat lie in the garden area all day and wait for each new person to show up. I had my last lecture on Thursday, 2 weeks to final exam. I have mixed feelings about it. Some relief that I won't have to keep up with the workload as I balance everything else for a bit, sad as I loved being there, and I really enjoyed spending time with my daughter in class, and happy that I have done so well with such new learning and at such a stressful time in my life. I think I will be doing an online one instead of the socialogy one I've signed up for. I'm still waiting on a few things to line up before I commit to one or the other.
I have been sending out resumes through the week, and it's extremely time-consuming and apparantly useless since I have yet to hear back from anywhere.
This week I will approach each day as a child. Looking at everything with new eyes, like I'm seeing it for the first time. I will anticipate the great in each day, and be excited. I am looking forward to getting up and travelling with so many other unique people in on the train at rush hour to get to my session time for 9:30am downtown. I will watch for the lessons I need to learn. I am sure patience as always will be near the top of my list. I will commit to being mindful. Practicing mindfulness is becoming so much a part of my life now, and it needs to be. I miss too much joy and beauty when I rush and am not present in every moment. Now I am listening to the children outside playing and laughing. Their laughter sounds so inviting and contageous. I will enjoy tomorrow, starting with staying in bed until I feel like getting up, then lounging around in my jammies till I feel like getting dressed. My son Justin is coming over with his two children for a visit. I miss seeing them all, it's been about 2 weeks and I thnk I will go and see my Mom. If the rain holds off, I'm going to ride my bike!
"If my heart can become pure and simple,
like that of a child, I think there probably
can be no greater happiness than this."- Kitaro Nishida
I have been sending out resumes through the week, and it's extremely time-consuming and apparantly useless since I have yet to hear back from anywhere.
This week I will approach each day as a child. Looking at everything with new eyes, like I'm seeing it for the first time. I will anticipate the great in each day, and be excited. I am looking forward to getting up and travelling with so many other unique people in on the train at rush hour to get to my session time for 9:30am downtown. I will watch for the lessons I need to learn. I am sure patience as always will be near the top of my list. I will commit to being mindful. Practicing mindfulness is becoming so much a part of my life now, and it needs to be. I miss too much joy and beauty when I rush and am not present in every moment. Now I am listening to the children outside playing and laughing. Their laughter sounds so inviting and contageous. I will enjoy tomorrow, starting with staying in bed until I feel like getting up, then lounging around in my jammies till I feel like getting dressed. My son Justin is coming over with his two children for a visit. I miss seeing them all, it's been about 2 weeks and I thnk I will go and see my Mom. If the rain holds off, I'm going to ride my bike!
"If my heart can become pure and simple,
like that of a child, I think there probably
can be no greater happiness than this."- Kitaro Nishida
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